The Curious Me

marsheawlsn1 — Thu, 10 Dec 2009 17:46:19 +0000

Swirls

Cindy Sherman

marsheawlsn1 — Tue, 12 May 2009 03:37:27 +0000

Cindy Sherman is an American photographer born January 19, 1954 whom is also an film director known for her conceptual self-portraits. I am a fan of Sherman because she reminds me of me. Although I am not a photographer i admire the idea of dressing in clothes in which others may find out of the norm. whereas Sherman works in series. Her series usually insist of photographing herself in a range of costumes. Although Sherman does not consider her work feminist, there is usually controveresy with her work attacking the idea that she supports it. I do not agree, she is an artist with a mind and a hope towards change and for that i admire her style and unique attitude.

Hip Hop: My love life lost?

marsheawlsn1 — Tue, 12 May 2009 03:14:37 +0000

Hip Hop Saved my Life

Some say Hip Hop saved their lives
Change their lives and made some even betta wives
Some say Hip Hop ruled the world
From Run DMC to Lauryn Hill
From the West to the East
Or the East to the West
Yet still had different hoods spitin’ ill
I say Hip Hop
And I Hip and I hop
Hip Hop
Now Hip Hop
Was the perfect distinction of my love life lost
Cause I remember
I remember when I use to love
Not use to but I remember
And although our love was a mystery
I was curious to know about chemistry
And even though our love seemed a mystery
I was still tryna’ figure out our history
We we’re like brown suga and cinnamon
Never to be confused with Salt and Peppa
But I remember
I remember when we fell apart
You were here I were there
My mind was too,
FULL
If only I could upload my thoughts
And send them via email
You’d still be here
No more system overload
Or pop-ups stating I’ve reached my maximum limit
Or people saying just forget it
Yo I can’t tell what’s happening to me
And People say its better this way
But what the hell is the other way
They’ll never know the feelin’
Never feel the same
Never see the smiles
Never know the words to say
Never know what you meant to me
These the same people who introduced you to me
And this is something that I can’t explain
And I don’t expect you to feel the same
But you evolved me into me
That chick known for tight jeans, fresh kicks in a hoodie
Nowadays two steppin’ to Ciara
Sayin’ not my goodies
I know what happening to me
Our love was a mystery
Because we had this crazy chemistry
Played out by my curiosity
Leaving me with animosity
Discovering my love life lost

Just a Crush

marsheawlsn1 — Tue, 12 May 2009 03:11:43 +0000

From the start
You are always in my heart

It hit me like a dart
Then one day we fell apart baby

never forget you babe
first loves you never seem to do

certain things bring out thoughts
but still

My heart says one thing
My head says another

So I follow my heart

and it leads me back to you

Could it be love or just a crush?

Could it be lust or really love?

I cant tell

I think I love you babe
I wish you felt the same way too

Plus all that we went through
Of course my love for you it grew
I thought the love true

I follow my heart
and it leads me to you
Is this love or just a crush?
I can’t tell

I Wonder Why

marsheawlsn1 — Tue, 12 May 2009 03:09:17 +0000

As I’m here all alone
I cant help but wonder why
We fell apart
How am I supposed to live without someone I love
How am I supposed to let you love someone else
I know no one else is ever going to compare to you
But I loved you for so long
And my feelings for you are real
You’re about to hit this thing called fame
And it gonna be hard to find a down chick that’s gonna love you for you and not the dollar signs
I could care less about money
Because money cant buy love and money cant buy happiness
Money can only attract famke smile and dimond rings
Whats a dimond ring to a female you ain’t really in love with you
I never thought you would leave me here to cry
Or love it felt so right to me
They say you gotta let it go and if it comes back it was meant to be
You’ve cme back plenty of times
What is this supposed to mean
Are you confused or is it me
Cuz I cant tell whats happening to me
People say its better this way
But what the hell is the other way
They’ll never know the feelin never feel the same
Never see the smiles never know the words to say
Never know what they meant to me
Im sure one ill see
Whats happening to me
Tell me how could

Alone

marsheawlsn1 — Tue, 12 May 2009 03:06:53 +0000

I’m sittin’ here
All alone
Waitin’ for you to pick up the phone
It’s been 3 days
Since I seen yo face
Been wondering if you’re ok
It’s not like ya babe
Got me stressing
Cant face the fact got me questioning
I’m not the only one
That’s on your mind
Got me feeling
O so empty
Now all that’s on my mind is spending time with somebody else
I’ve never felt
Its not right u know

I’m worried about u
Aint heard nothing from u
Don’t care what you’re doing
Just want to know if you’re ok
Just tell me that you’re ok
I can’t sleep at night
The site of holding my pillow tight cuz you’re not by my side
Just wondering if you’re ok
Just tell me that you’re ok, ok, ok

You don’t realize you got to find time
You been wrong and got me lingering on
It’s so easy to say
What you need to say
Just let me know
It’s not like you
I’m so emotional
What happened to you?
That man I use to know
Never settled for something he didn’t know
Had me believing you
Now it’s all wrong
I can’t take no more
Packing my bags
I’m heading for the door
Maybe next time you’ll take care of home
But it won’t be with me
It’s not worth waiting for

Lost In Love

marsheawlsn1 — Tue, 12 May 2009 03:04:43 +0000

Our loves a mystery
How I don’t want to stop you and me
But this something we can’t explain
I know that u feel the same
Cuz when you touch or make love we no longer feel love burn inside
No

I don’t want to be here
Lost in love
So let’s just stop for a second
Collect for some minutes
Reminisce for some hours
It will take some weeks or some months to get back there with you
But I don’t want to be here
Lost in love

Is there someway to work this out
I’m not ready to stop the past
This is breaking me down inside
If we let go and walk away
Cuz even though we got problems I know we can work em out
I wanna work this out with you
I don’t wanna be here
Lost in love

So let’s just stop for a second
Collect for some minutes
Reminisce for some hours
It will take some weeks or some months to get back there with you
But I don’t want to be here
Lost in love

I hope we can make it through
cuz I don’t wanna be missing you
Everyday won’t be the same
I’m not saying ill take the blame
But I apologize for all the things I put you through
I don’t wanna be here
Lost in love

So let’s just stop for a second
Collect for some minutes
Reminisce for some hours
It will take some weeks or some months to get back there with you
But I don’t want to be here
Lost in love

My Thoughts

marsheawlsn1 — Tue, 12 May 2009 03:02:23 +0000

Too cold to speak
My heart can’t find the words
Too warm to look
My eyes can’t find the time
You kept distance
But now its too late
All I want is something money buy
My heart it won’t lie
Money can’t buy my heart
it can’t my love
can’t buy real smiles
I don’t want no second chances
They don’t seem to work out right

Corinthians 13-4

marsheawlsn1 — Tue, 12 May 2009 03:01:21 +0000

Love is patient, love is kind.
It does not envy, it does not boast,
it is not proud.
It is not rude, it is not self-seeking.
It is not easily angered,
it keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil,
but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects, always trusts,
always hopes, always perseveres.
Love never fails.

~I Corinthians 13:4-8~

My Melody

marsheawlsn1 — Tue, 12 May 2009 03:00:09 +0000

I got this melody singing in my heart baby It’s a symphony of the love you give to me I never thought that I would fall in love so suddenly But the way I’m feeling’s telling me it’s got to be True love, over flowing unconditionally True love, something I didn’t think you’d do to me Cuz I’ve been here before, it’s never felt this way before Yes I’ve been hurt before don’t want to go that route no more So make me feel secure Tell me I’m worth trying for Cuz what I see in you is possibly my dream come true I put my trust in you There’s only one thing left to do Give me all of you I swear I’ll put my all in you As long as we stay true I’ll always feel this way for you.

La La, La La
That’s the melody that plays in my heart for you
La La, La La
That’s the symphony that holds the lock to this key
La La, La La
I’ll sing this melody only out my mouth for you
La La, La La
I’ll sing this symphony hurry and un-key this lock

If I’m sleeping low wake me, meet me in my dreams
Cuz I don’t want to go one second doubts that this is real
I always want you and please you in each and everyway
But baby please don’t never ever take your love away
Trust me, and believe in what I’m saying is true
Believe me, and hope that one day we were born to be
Unbreakable…Something precious, for us to hold
A true reflection of what men and women were created for
So let’s show and prove for what destiny could do to you
There’s so many out there searching for what I found in you
Don’t give up on your dreams
there’s a time and place for everything
I’m a reflection of what life after pain could come to be
La La, La La
That’s the melody that plays in my heart for you
La La, La La
That’s the symphony that holds the lock to this key
La La, La La
I’ll sing this melody only out my mouth for you
La La, La La
I’ll sing this symphony hurry and un-key this lock
I’m so high off of love
Don’t think I’ll ever come down